So how did I get here? How did I get to this stage in my life again where I am actually feeling content. I have severe depression, the list of can nots is definitely there, I never expected to feel any positive feelings at this time. But I’m actually feeling good about myself.
This year I started to plan ahead in little ways, I tried to take back control over my life in ways that I could manage. I knew that I would have very unsatisfying days if I remained the same. I wanted to do better than just survive. So I looked up the events on my local councils website and I found that two activities actually interested me. I committed to attending and what a boost to my confidence it was!! I could attend these affordable groups, in my local community and as I didn’t disclose about my depression, I could just be myself. I began to meet other people but I was content being in my own little world too.
It sparked up something inside of me and as I felt stronger I explored the topics further, for example I attended the Watercolours group so I started to research watercolours at home and I discovered online training through Black Chalk Collective on Instagram. The more I practised, the more my love for Watercolours grew. I had ignited a new passion. It was incredible because with my online lessons I could practice everyday! Suddenly I realised those endless days of sleeping and boredom could be behind me. It started to ignite other areas of my life for the better where I’m taking on big challenges for me. So yeah, content and Depressed. That’s Me!