SO, I have just finished writing a letter that is like a sword slaying all my dragons at once. I am so brave (in theory) and I think I’ve been pretty tactful about what I have to say. I feel like I’ve got some pretty good ammunition at the moment as I’ve been attending regular counselling and another group focusing on all of the emotions, yep I think I’ve got this one in the bag. The only thing I don’t have any control over is the person receiving this letter, all I know is what my counsellor told me, people without boundaries have heightened reactions and tend to go all over the place, crossing the boundaries as they go. But I know the time has come, I’ve tried to set polite examples, I’ve tried in SO many ways to get my message across, it’s just not working. This time I seek the armor of the written word.
I’ve questioned myself why exactly NOW is the time and I think I’ve had an epiphany. All of the stress and the toll it is taking on my body is just not worth it anymore. The price is too high a price to be paid. I want my life back, as much of it as I can handle, I don’t have time for conflict anymore in my life. There are some really tricky relationships to be worked out, things that I may not be able to solve on my own, somethings or some people that I may need to avoid for now. I wonder just how many heads my dragon has on it, could I like Merlin the Magician face this head on and reign triumphant after I have conquered it. I wait expectantly…….