SO, I have just finished writing a letter that is like a sword slaying all my dragons at once.  I am so brave (in theory) and I think I’ve been pretty tactful about what I have to say.  I feel like I’ve got some pretty good ammunition at the moment as I’ve been attending regular counselling and another group focusing on all of the emotions, yep I think I’ve got this one in the bag.  The only thing I don’t have any control over is the person receiving this letter, all I know is what my counsellor told me, people without boundaries have heightened reactions and tend to go all over the place, crossing the boundaries as they go.  But I  know the time has come, I’ve tried to set polite examples, I’ve tried in SO many ways to get my message across, it’s just not working.  This time I seek the armor of the written word.

I’ve questioned myself why exactly NOW is the time and I think I’ve had an epiphany.  All of the stress and the toll it is taking on my body is just not worth it anymore.  The price is too high a price to be paid.  I want my life back, as much of it as I can handle, I don’t have time for conflict anymore  in my life.  There are some really tricky relationships to be worked out, things that I may not be able to solve on my own, somethings or some people that I may need to avoid for now.  I wonder just how many heads my dragon has on it, could I like Merlin the Magician face this head on and reign triumphant after I have conquered it.  I wait expectantly…….

Author: thedepressedcaravan

Hey! I am a passionate advocate for those with depression following my own journey with severe depression. I still have depression however I have found a way with professional help and sheer determination, to reach out to others and to stay connected to life and my local community. I LOVE music, art: watercolour and brush lettering and live to help others. I'm very into self-development and love activities that focus on the beauty in life and simple things.

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